Kid Cudi confirmed via Facebook on Tuesday evening that he’s checked into rehab after having suicidal thoughts.
The rapper, who recently made headlines for blasting Kanye West and Drake for having ghost writers, shared on the social media platform that “theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times” and that he is ready and deserving “to have peace.”
“Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed,” he wrote. “Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.”
That’s when he revealed, “Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.”
The rapper continued, “I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it.”
He explained, “I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.”
The Cleveland native suggested “I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.”
He concluded by apologizing for letting “anyone down,” but that “Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn.”
Following Cudi’s beef with Ye and Drizzy, West went on to compliment the rapper, calling him the “most influential artist.”
We wish Cudi well.